Next month marks two years since I left my safe, secure, and motivated, which made it all the more difficult because I had nowhere to place the motivation. Leaving me feeling stuck externally, but with the internal adrenaline to push forward like a horse out of the gate.
I think that internal drive is what separated me from my co-workers. I always remained highly professional and put me on the path to my next step.
I realize now the problem I was experiencing in the first several years of my career was my focus was seriously misplaced. I spent a lot of my time focusing on how I didn’t want to be in that career. I focused on all the things that irritated me about the job. This hyper focus on what I didn’t want stripped me of the energy and enthusiasm to focus on what I did want.
That’s the thing about focus: what you focus on expand exploration.
Around year 8 I started noticing changes within my self. I began to explore the world outside of my job. I did whatever I was drawn to. I let myself just play and let the others go. I had no attachment; it was all just for fun.
For the first time in my career life I was no longer focusing on the woes of my daily 9 to 5. It made going to work everyday so much easier. My focus was no longer on resisting the present moment.
With the resistance gone, the clarity I had been searching for many years slowly began to form. It wasn’t an overnight change, but when the concrete idea popped into my mind I knew it was right. I could feel it with every bone in my body.
I worked for another 2 years after gaining the clarity about the change I wanted to make. It was the easiest two years of my career. I no longer resented going to work every day. I no longer felt stuck. I realized I was making a choice to stay and myself. I could create what I wanted no matter where I was.
And you have the same power… look at what you’re focusing on. Is it working for you? Spend a little time with that question and then take the time to choose your focus.
If you’d like to find more ways to make peace between your job and your dreams, I’m offering a free teleclass on September 20th. You can register by clicking here.