I have a problem with surrendering. From my research I know the biggest step in giving up resistance is to surrender, but I’ve always been a rebel.
I can’t do it.
I’ve never been able to.
I’ve wanted to, but it doesn’t happen.
I fight it.
I think it’s the word. When I hear surrender, I see myself lying down on the ground white flag in hand. Lifeless.
And that doesn’t feel good to me.
When I envision it, it makes my mind and be free.
It makes me want to “make something happen”.
Besides being a “doer”, I am also a pusher.
In the past, I’ve done a [...]